Sunday Scribblings- Destination

Giving up my past, vol I, chapter 1

When I was younger I was convinced that I was destined

to do great things. Small but great. I had big dreams of

joining the Peace Corp. and traveling to Africa to do good

things. I even completed the application.

Funny thing- since I began this post, having saved it as a

draft, I went over to my parent's house for a New Year's

meal (shrimp creole-yum). My dad was in cleaning mode-

really mom was and was making him clean out his office.

I had an old file cabinet in there chucked full and he

convinced me it was time to go through it. And lo and behold

what did I find but all my old college stuff and my application

packet to the Peace Corp. It just seemed to funny at the time.

And a sign that it is just time to let it all go. Let the past slip

away.

I bought a new set of cards by Dr. Wayne Dyer, 10 Secrets for Success

and Inner Peace. I have been using this set. And it was time for

something new. I pick a new card, randomly, about once a week

or whenever the mood strikes me. I hang them on my dry erase

board on my refridgerator. Right next to the hot lunch schedule

for my kid's school. Can't miss it. Some stay there a little while

and others need more time to sink in. They are wonderful little

words, phrases, and choices to help implement change, understanding

and peace.

So this is the first card that I picked from the deck.

"Give up your personal history...

Know that your past is over!

By referring to previous struggles and using them

as reasons for not getting on with your life today.

You're assigning responsibility to the past for

why you can't be successful or happy in the

present."-

Wow, that hit home a little bit and was very timely.

I definately have not let the past interfere with moving

forward with my life. I have overcome so much and

have a beautiful life and a beautiful family.

But I do use the word overcome and obstacles and whatnot.

It's time to let that go. I am done overcoming my past.

It is the past and the present and future have so much

in store for me.

So back to my dad's winter cleaning. See how this is coming

full circle. Anyway all my old college notes, binders, some

textbooks, poetry, newpaperclipings, letters, etc. were tucked away

in there. And I purged. I got rid of it all, except a very small pile of

old stories and poems that I wrote (not very good stuff mind you). But I want

to sit down alone someday with a cup of coffee (or perhaps a glass of wine) as read

those words that at one time came from my mind and another time. And then

let them slip away as well. I also kept a lovely old picture of Katherine Hepburn when

she was so young and stylish. I will put that somewhere.

So I purged some hard work of the past, and some not so hard work. My dad

being the pack rat that he is made sure that I gave him the emply binders and

binder clips. It felt great to put it all at the curb.

A fresh start. A fresh destination. Another circle that is forming.

A beginning to an end.

And finally an end to a beginning!